The Persuasion Filter and the DCEU

I know it’s been some time since I’ve posted.  The fact is, I was so disappointed about what Warner Bros. did to Zack Snyder’s Justice League that I couldn’t even write a review of the… thing… we got, and that took me out of blogging mode.  That coupled with the need to not put my entire novel online, left us with the tumbleweeds you probably notice all over this blog.

But, although I haven’t been writing, I’ve still been thinking, and not only that, but I’ve been getting a clearer handle on my worldview.  So when I posted about politics, I talked at some length about narratives and perceptions.  And what I’ve realized in the time since then, is that this is all part of a bigger picture: persuasion.  Politics has always been about persuasion, and the most persuasive candidate is usually the one who wins the election.  Simple as that.  The media, whether Fox or CNN or anyone else, has their particular bias and that can be persuasive but it also plays into confirmation bias, which is to say we all like to watch whatever news makes us feel good about what we already think.

But persuasion exists beyond politics.  In fact it exists all around us.  Sales is based on persuasion, and in business sales equals success.  So the most persuasive salesperson is the most effective; the business that manages its branding the most effectively, is the most successful.  Branding, by the way, is a type of persuasion.  It even happens with churches – especially the charismatic churches.  There’s a growing church in this area called Lifepoint Church.  We all wondered how they were growing so rapidly and I finally saw them in action the other day.  They came to my place of work to buy a bunch of food to feed the hungry.  Which is awesome, of course.  But I noticed the way the organization had arranged it, they made this simple act into an event that raised their visibility.  That is to say, the people of the church all came out in a humongous sea of humanity, wearing Lifepoint t-shirts that were red, and which bore the slogan “PAINT THE TOWN RED.”  They all came out at once, and they all had a shopping list that had been given them, and they bought whatever they were asked to buy and donate.

I had to try and figure how that fit with the gospel, where Jesus says when you do something good not to tell anybody but just do it and keep it to yourself, because it shouldn’t be about glory or recognition but just about doing a good thing.  Then I realized that Jesus in his own way was persuasive.  He didn’t just walk around preaching across the countryside, he healed the sick and the blind and raised the dead, cast out demons, and turned water into wine.  And in the end, he went to his death without uttering a word, allowed himself to be stripped and beaten, the flesh flayed off his back, and was nailed to a cross in full view of the public.  He didn’t just talk a lot.  He put himself out there, and put everything on the line.

Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., understood this principle in the way he approached his wing of the Civil Rights Movement.  There was persuasiveness in being nonviolent, in letting themselves be attacked by dogs, by policemen with clubs, by men with fire hoses; there was persuasiveness in going to jail and showing that the cause was so righteous that none of these indecencies could take away their dignity.  King’s speeches were persuasive, too.  He didn’t attack people, he attacked policies, and he tried to reach hearts and minds, to appeal to the common humanity in all people.

Now, Lifepoint Church’s techniques aren’t this dramatic because there’s no danger in what they’re doing; but they absolutely are persuasive.  They make themselves visible, they show you that they are an active church that does good things for the community.  It makes people want to be a part of their organization.  That’s just excellent persuasion.  And maybe, when it’s getting people involved in something that actually IS making a difference…maybe it’s a good thing.

So, let’s bring this principle to film, or specifically to the promotion of film.  In the years since Harry Knowles and the other first-generation independent online entertainment journalists opened a pipeline between fans and the entertainment industry beyond the sale and redemption of tickets, we have seen the major film studios learn how to work that system to their advantage.  And the system has evolved, so that now it’s based as much on YouTube as anywhere else.  People are making money just making YouTube videos where they blab about stuff they know little to nothing about.

Disney, being the largest and most successful studio at this point, knows how to make this work for them.  They invite entertainment journalists – both the legitimate ones and some of the more successful internet pundits – to tour the sets, to interview the stars and the creators.  Disney treats them like they’re special.  Now, that’s just good business.  Can you see why?  If you’re a schmoe with a YouTube channel that’s really taken off and you have a couple million followers, you’re feeling kind of like a celebrity yourself.  And to have done all that work, that has to have been what you wanted.  You wanted to be a voice, to be a part of the entertainment industry, even if only on the fringes.

So, by inviting you to the set, a studio, in this case Disney, legitimizes you.  They’ve given you something you want.  They’ve given you access, let you in the door.  They’ve fed you.  They (hopefully) stopped short of the reach-around.  But the other side of that, is they’re effectively making you an ally.  When you go to write about your experience, you’ll have had fun, and your writeup will reflect that.  Or when you make your YouTube video.  Therefore, when you go to the theater to watch the finished film, you’ll feel a sense of ownership because you were there when it was all happening.  You’ll have a ton of fond memories that make you light up just watching the film.  And you’ll probably feel a bit of an obligation to pay them back for the good time, by giving them a good review.  Especially because you want to be invited back next time.

Disney, in fact, does EXACTLY what I’ve just described.  They’re known for it.  Warner Bros., on the other hand, is notorious for being very bad at this game.  Warners, to put it bluntly, doesn’t kiss nerd butts.  Now, that alone isn’t enough to generate negative reviews, obviously.  That won’t happen on its own.  But there’s this DC and Marvel rivalry that has existed since Marvel Comics came to be in the 60’s.  And it’s only natural.  DC and Marvel are competitors.  Like Coke and Pepsi.  Ford and Chevy.  Beatles and Stones.  McDonald’s and all that is good and holy.

So there’s already a pre-existing tendency to choose sides between DC and Marvel.  If you’re a blogger getting your butt kissed by Disney, and being treated as insignificant by Warner Bros., well, that’s going to decide your bias for you real quick.  If you have to pick a side, you’ll pick the side of the butt-kissing every time.  Human nature being what it is.

So the bloggers and the vloggers went out and trashed BvS because it wasn’t a Marvel picture, and nobody at Warners ever even offered them a handy.  It probably wasn’t even a conscious choice.  They thought they were doing their duty.  Now you’ll say, “but wait!  The bloggers and the vloggers and the critics weren’t the ONLY ones who hated the movie, a lot of moviegoers did, too!”  And that’s fair.

Except that a five-minute conversation with the average moviegoer who hates BvS yields, consistently one result: none of them can name a legitimate reason why they dislike the film.  None of them can describe one actual thing about the film that was bad.  And when you counter them, point-for-point, most of them just move the goal posts.  They have to make up stuff that isn’t true, to explain why they don’t like the movie.  You know what that’s a tell for?

Cognitive dissonance.

They BELIEVE the movie is bad, but they don’t know why.  And they can’t accept being wrong, or having been duped.  So they hallucinate all kinds of reasons why the movie was bad.  Which probably indicates they didn’t form their own opinion, here, they sided with their favorite internet personality, or they simply chose Marvel over DC because Marvel movies are good so DC movies can’t be.

Now, here’s Warners’ second mistake.  When they realized they had a branding problem after BvS, they pulled the rug out from under Zack Snyder and made Joss Whedon ruin Zack’s movie.  Yeah, no, that’s what happened.  They MADE Joss ruin Zack’s movie.  I don’t think Joss was like, “I’ll just piss all over everything, here.”  Joss is actually a pretty talented guy.  Warner’s told him, “Zack’s movies aren’t working well for our brand, so make the movie short and funny.”  And Joss said, “um…well I guess if I don’t my career’s going to take a hit, so, this sucks, but at least I’m getting paid.”  Probably.  I mean, I can’t read his mind.

But here’s why this was bad persuasion.  In the first place, it says, “everything we’ve done so far has been bad,” which is throwing under the bus every fan who has paid to own the DC movies and to see them in the theater so far.  It’s throwing under the bus every fan who went in prepared to love BvS and did.  It’s throwing under the bus Zack Snyder, and his wife Deborah, who worked their asses off for years, starting with Man of Steel, to get the DCEU up and running.  In short, it was brand suicide.  It did not persuade anyone who hated the DCEU already, to come see Justice League.  It displeased the diehards who love Zack’s films.  It produced a film for exactly NOBODY.  Justice League the theatrical cut, or “Josstice League,” as some are calling it, is a film for nobody.  It landed with a splat and nobody gave a damn.

Now, here’s the good news.  Warners cleaned house.  All the idiots responsible for these dumb decisions are gone.  Kevin Tsujihara (the King of the Idiots) is out.  Walter Hamada is in.  There are rumblings of many varied projects, which are not all connected.  That sounds off-putting at first, but it could potentially be a great idea.  Here’s why.

It sets up multiple paths to success.  They’ll make some darker films, some lighter films; some low-budget films, and some big-budget ones.  They’ll see which ones audiences respond to most, and then they’ll make more of those.  That’s a good strategy.  It makes me think maybe Mr. Hamada has a good persuasion game.  Maybe he’s going to right some wrongs.

This is backed up by the fact that Warners now actively kisses nerd butts.  Embargoes lifted today for Aquaman set reports.  The trailer drops at SDCC this coming weekend.  And it has been officially confirmed that the #SnyderCut of Justice League exists.  It has not yet been confirmed that it is coming, but there have been a lot of hints, both from Zack Snyder on Vero and from others as well, including Jay Oliva, Zack’s storyboard artist, and Aisha Tyler, the host of the DC panel at the upcoming SDCC.

If Hamada is the persuader and strategist I think he is, this would be a brilliant play.  The bloggers and the vloggers and the journalists have been saying for months that the #SnyderCut doesn’t exist.  For them to be proven wrong in so big a way, would jolt a lot of people out of their mental cages.  Bust some bubbles.  And it might signal the dawning of a new age.  I could be getting ahead of myself, of course.  We’ll probably have a clearer picture, one way or the other, next Saturday.

But until then, I leave you with this food for thought.

Oh, and one other thing:

#ReleaseTheSnyderCut

A good decision (left) and a bad one (right), as solutions to the same problem.

 

Dolores O’Riordan – A Voice Out of the Darkness

It was summer, 1994.  I had recently graduated high school, and was enjoying a trip to Ireland with my parents.  Along for the journey was my best friend Steve, and his mother and stepfather.  We spent the trip traveling around the lower half of the island, staying well clear of The Troubles, touring the countryside and various points of interest, staying in a different B&B almost every night.

King John’s Castle, Limerick, Ireland

One day early in the trip — possibly Day One, else it was Two — we visited the city of Limerick.  Steve and I were excited because this was the home of The Cranberries, though of course they were probably not there that day and in any case we certainly did not encounter them in the street or anything so absurd.  My two clearest memories of Limerick are an HMV, where I bought two t-shirts I would wear throughout my college years, and saw for the first time a copy of U2’s first album, “Boy,” with the proper cover art.   The second thing, just up the street upon an island in the River Shannon, was King John’s Castle, a sprawling 13th-century fortress.  Somehow, at the time, I was more excited about being in the Cranberries’ hometown.

I don’t know if it’s less common for teenage boys than it is for teenage girls to have a crush on popular singers, but in any case it really only happened once for me, and that was Dolores O’Riordan.  She typically kept her hair short; either a black or blonde pixie cut, with a broad forehead and sort of a heart-shaped face.  She typically wore simple black clothing, stockings, and combat boots, not the aggressively sexualized style of the modern pop singer.  She looked like she had a lot on her mind and would probably have a lot of interesting things to say, and that combined with her voice and the steely look in her eyes, made her a very compelling figure.  She didn’t need to give away the goods to be interesting.  She could flat-out sing.  It was an unusual voice but it was powerful, and carried a lot of emotion, and she used it in compelling ways that truly made her, as a vocalist, as much a part of the band’s signature sound as her three bandmates — the brothers Mike and Noel Hogan, and taking the award for owner of the Irish-est possible name, drummer Feargal Lawler.

The Cranberries music has a kind of haunting sound which struck an interesting counterpoint to the grunge movement of the 1990’s.  They were without question a rock and roll band, but their sound was sort of poppy, with ringing guitars and gentle, tripping rhythms, a lot of strings and other instrumentation that went beyond what the four of them typically produced on their own.  The sound, like O’Riordan’s iconic voice, lived in the space between beauty and anguish, haunted by the dark but not removed from the light.

Between March of 1993 and April of 1996, they released three hugely successful albums and a stream of classic singles that you still hear out in the world, twenty-five years later.  They had kind of a comedown in popularity after the third album, which was a bit of a departure from their signature sound, and then after a less successful fourth album in 1999, they left Island Records and made a fifth album in 2001 that I honestly did not even know existed.  They broke up, and reunited over a decade later, in 2012, to release a new album.  Their most recent offering, “Something Else,” was released last April.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81c5ko2GGzg

It hasn’t yet been revealed how Dolores died.  I know that she reportedly suffered from bipolar disorder and depression, stemming from abuse she suffered at the age of 8.  I hate that such a thing happens to anyone.  She had struggles, resulting in an unfortunate confrontation with an Aer Lingus air hostess in 2013.  She also tried to end her life that year but, thankfully, the attempt failed.  She has three children – ranging in age from 12 to 20 – and she always said she loved “being a mum.”  She also fought with anorexia for a while.  My fear is that her mental illnesses caught up with her.  I hope that isn’t true.  I would take almost any other explanation over that.  So often the people who tell stories and create beautiful art do so because they need a way to express some darkness that has been planted within them, and too often they leave us too soon because of it.

I’ve been listening to The Cranberries this afternoon.  “Ode to My Family” struck me in a whole new way today, as I considered Dolores’s life, and so I’ll share that video below.  All I can say is, may you be at peace, Dolores.  You kicked ass.  You were always beautiful, no matter how you might have felt sometimes.  Thank you for sharing your beautiful voice with us.  Thank you for your music.  And thank you for giving a seventeen year old boy a healthy image of what a young woman looks like — with a head full of interesting ideas, a badass pair of combat boots, and all her clothes on.

The Wolf and the Warrior

Recent events – in name, the death of Chris Cornell and the news about Autumn Snyder, Zack Snyder’s daughter, has made me decide that it’s time to talk about my depression.  I don’t talk about it a lot, except with my closest friends.  I’m not embarrassed about it or ashamed of it, it’s just that I’ve never been to a shrink, I’ve never been diagnosed.  Only recently, within the last few years, have I learned that it runs in my family.  I’ve dealt with it in some form for most of my life, and it’s the reason I write, the reason I used to draw non-stop.  It’s my voice.  The voice of a guy who can’t use his real voice because a lot of the time it doesn’t work; it skips and scratches like a broken record, and it isn’t a pretty  voice, nor an exceptionally manly one.  A deviated septum, possibly sustained during childhood when I jumped off one of those Masonite slides at a friend’s house and bashed my face onto a brick hearth, gives it a honking, nasal tone that is flatly unattractive.

Anyway, I’ve never been diagnosed with depression, and I don’t see the point in going to a shrink because I wouldn’t accept meds even if they were deemed necessary, and in any case I certainly don’t have it to the extent that others do.  I’ve never been suicidal.  I can say that for a certainty, though I can admit that there’ve been times where I hated being alive, and couldn’t imagine a day when I wouldn’t.  Those were dark times, and I don’t dwell there.  That is not my life.  That is not what God wants for me.  That is not His plan.

Therein is one of the secrets to my dealing with it: faith.  It would be a lie to say that I haven’t had my struggles with faith, though, too.  I remember one time, back at my parents’ house, having been broken up with by yet another young lady, I collapsed on the floor between my bed and my dresser, in the corner with the subwoofer, my back against the actual wall, tears streaming down my face, wondering what in the hell was wrong with me that nobody wanted me, my mom came in and knelt down in front of me, trying to cheer me up, and she asked me if I had prayed.  I remember this because the words that came out of my mouth were like black sludge, like poison, and I bear the shame of them every day.  I ever worked it into one of my books, “The Disciple of Cardonn.”  I told my mom, “the son of a bitch doesn’t listen.”  I regret those words with all my heart.  I may apologize to the Lord for those words every day of my life; I know I was forgiven the first time I did so.  But I will always be ashamed that I ever said them.  What I have learned in the years since, is that it’s pointless to expect things to go my way, and that most of the heartache and the worry and sense of doom and defeat I have encountered in my life, has come from thinking that I could control how things would play out, and being emotionally and intellectually unable to accept the reality when it didn’t meet my expectations.

I watched a few documentaries about castles in Great Britain and Ireland, recently; and one of them, a fortress called Warwick Castle, there’s a dungeon which is really just a dark, claustrophobic stone pit with a mud floor and a chute from the privy, so that the guy who lived in the castle would literally crap on his prisoners.  As a metaphor for certain periods of my life, the dungeon of Warwick Castle is imprecise, but it will do.  When you try to force things to go your way, and they don’t, you rather have the feeling of being in a dungeon where it is raining crap.  You don’t know how you got there, or why.  You would give quite a lot to be shut of it.

But of course this is disappointment, not depression.  Depression, however, makes it tough to handle disappointment.  Because every disappointment becomes cataclysmic in scale.  Way back in my college days, dealing with the disappointment of heartbreak for the first real time, I wrote a poem.  I don’t remember it; it is probably long gone, and in any case was most likely garbage.  But I had a turn of phrase that I thought was very clever at the time, and looking back on it, it was describing depression: I spoke of having some unknown condition of the mind “that makes mountains of molehills, and molehills of mountains.”  The point being that you get focused on the wrong things and find yourself disproportionately upset about them.  It can be very hard to recognize that, when you’re in the middle of it.  Because your brain is affected.  You are malfunctioning.

I talk about heartbreak a lot because my loneliness and whatever sort of mild depression I have, make mountains out of a simple thing like the end of a relationship.  It takes me forever to get right again after that happens.  The older I get, the longer it seems to take.  Like skin getting less pliable with age, so does my heart.  But my emotional disturbance doesn’t live solely in the realm of heartbreak.  I have a kind of sine wave of general happiness; it goes up and down.  I hit a peak for a few days where I am downright gregarious, laughing and joking with complete strangers, surprisingly bold with the ladies; then it passes and I start slowing down, drooping, sleepy all the time, lethargic, sullen.  I don’t want you to talk to me, but I didn’t tell you to leave.  Get back here and leave me the hell alone.  During this low point, I can’t even bear to hear people laughing.  I hear people laughing and I want to punch the living hell out of all of them.  I see my red door, I must have it painted black.

I’m learning to recognize it for what it is.  To understand that I need to be less affected by stuff I can’t control.  I need to quit giving things power over my life.  Ups and downs are natural, but the sine wave, not so much.  And what happens, then, is that love, on those rare occasions when I find it, is like a mug of beer and a shot of bourbon in the hands of an alcoholic.  Suddenly the sine wave is disrupted; I am up up up and flying.  And I don’t want it to ever end.  When it inevitably does, I come down like an atom bomb out of the belly of a B-29.  And I mean I crater epically.  In the end it doesn’t so much level the sine wave, as exaggerate it.

So, I no longer actively search for love.  I fear putting myself through that again, for the wrong woman, will destroy me.  If I can find stability, by myself, then I will be a better partner when the time comes.  Whatever God has in mind, I will follow the steps He lays out for me and not try to force my own will upon it; that way lies only ruin.   I am fortunate that I have this ability to introspect and sort through not only my feelings, but the reasons for them.  It keeps things from getting away from me.  When I understand that my feelings aren’t rational, I can dissect them and find the root causes.  The last time heartbreak came to me, I remember sliding down again, and realizing what I was experiencing was an emotional hangover, and knowing that, I was able to put some perspective on it, and prayerfully face it.

Now, it’s been a couple of years.  My feelings for her remain, but I know that they are not requited.  I exist, with this emotional reality staring at me like a lone wolf from the forest’s edge.  Sometimes I can only see the light reflecting off its eyes.  It’s there.  I am not very sad.  But I am not very happy.  I am in the field, and the wolf is in the woods, and we regard each other.  I could go into the woods.  I could dwell there, and snarl at people and howl at the moon, and hunt some kind of satisfaction, some fleeting victory.  I could bare my teeth and spring away into the brush.  Because that wolf is just the other part of me.  The thing I would become if I let the darkness in.

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But I remain in the field, where I can see the light of the sun, and the stars, and the moon.  From a distance away, I hear people laugh, and I want to punch them, but I don’t.  I exist.  It is lonely.  I am lonely.

Three times in my life, I can remember hitting bottom, and each time has been lower than before.  The first, was when I left home to start school at Longwood College 1994.  I did not have a direction in life, and I did not want to go to college, at least until I knew what I wanted to do with my life.  However this option was not allowed me.  I have never done well with change.  Four people were my entire world: my parents, and my friends Steven Lowry and Jeremy Bertz.  Those four people were my support system, they kept me sane and kept me laughing and kept me from feeling too alone.  Leaving all of that behind, going to a place far way with nothing but strangers, filled me with anxiety and dread.  I did not realize that I had a kind of anxiety, but I’m sure now that I do, and like the other things, it has only intensified with age.  When I got to Longwood, I was placed in a dorm room with Drew, a tall, quiet guy with a strong observational wit, and Chris Blauert, basically a shitty version of Chris Pine.

The three of us shared a suite with Jay, who looks like the love child of David Hasselhoff and Joel Osteen; Justin, who used to spray a cloud of deodorant in the air and walk through it; and Andy Banyasz, a cynical, ballcap-wearing Mac user.  I liked all of them except Shitty Chris Pine, but none of them particularly liked me, and in any case, I was panicking, full of the shock of being away from home, having to live with people who listened to The Pixies, and ruined my sleep by spending all evening socializing across campus and then coming home and turning the light on to do homework at 2am when I had an art class at 7.  The truth is, I was unprepared in almost every way for being away from home, and I was depressed, and I didn’t understand it, and thus I didn’t know how to face it, and I desperately needed a support system, but instead I mostly got bullied and it only got worse.  I’m sure I was insufferable.  I was depressed, what the hell else would I be to a bunch of guys just trying to drink beer and get laid, than an insufferable bastard?  Of course I was.  I hated every minute of my freshman year.  At the beginning of the second semester, Drew and Shitty Chris Pine kicked me out of the room, forcing me to find residence elsewhere.  I benefitted from this by getting a room to myself, but I had to share a suite with two frat turds whom it would be possible to compare to apes, if one felt like insulting apes.  I remember one night, laying on my bed in my half-furnished, cold, cinder-block dorm room, crying, a voice telling me just jump out the window.  I wanted to be anyplace other than college.  Anyplace other than Farmville, Virginia.  The thing that stopped me, was the realization that the only thing worse than staying in college would be disappointing my parents, or worse, hurting them.

The second time was about six years later.  I was working at a print shop in Fredericksburg that made junk mail, primarily with a Catholic conservative bent, when my then-girlfriend, Laura (it was a long-distance internet relationship, because I was very stupid) broke up with me.  To be clear… I had just finished four and a half years at Longwood, where I did not want to be, studying drawing and printmaking because they did not teach sequential art, and not minoring in English because my advisor was an idiot.  I came home and had to find a job, which was made more complicated by the fact that after all that school I still did not know what I wanted to do with my life.  In fact I was less certain at this juncture than I had been when I started college.  Still directionless, I took the pre-press job because it was sort of art-adjacent, my degree had “printmaking” in the title, which may have fooled the idiots that ran the company, it paid reasonably well, and had a strong benefits package.

I was depressed every day, going to that awful job in that awful place and making awful crap for money.  It was art-adjacent in the exact way that farting is sort of like composing music.  Laura was my life-preserver.  Idiot that I am, it was her, and not my faith, or my family, that I clung to.  I broke her.  And then she left and I just broke.  There were days, driving to work, that the voice urged me to swerve into oncoming traffic.  Actually it was all of the days.  I hated my life.  I kept going there and collecting the paycheck as long as I could, but finally the awfulness of the job just pushed me over the edge.  One can only throw so many chairs – and no, that isn’t a metaphor, I used to throw chairs up in that place.   Then one day I walked out.  I took five months off, wrote the first draft of “Disciple of Cardonn,” and that was therapy as much as anything.  I got right.  Mom told me it was like I was myself again, like her son was back after being gone for a long time.  I knew what she meant.  I felt it, too.  I got re-hired at Food Lion, where I had worked during my college years, and I’ve been there ever since.  It was only supposed to be five years.  Whoops.

Well, I did have a plan, once.

The third time was just a couple of years ago.  I had worked my way up to being a Produce Manager, and I was proud of the work I was doing.  I was making enough money and had finally lined up a couple of friends to rent a place with, and I got out of my parents’ house at last.  I was proud of that, but remember what I said about my support system, and change?  I began to feel adrift, again.  I also had to adhere to a similar sleep schedule to what I’d had at AKA, and I have learned that this is a factor for me.  My circadian rhythms dictate that I was not meant for being early to bed nor early to rise.  It takes a toll on my physical, mental, and emotional health.  I had the job for some fourteen months.  I started strong but as the job took its toll on me, I was increasingly unable to perform.  Finally the company swapped store managers between the Dahlgren and King George stores, and I found myself working for a man I still maintain is the actual devil.  He ground me down the rest of the way, and then forced me to step down from my position and leave the store I’d been at for over a decade.  I’m happier at my current store, but I lost a lot of money, most of my dignity, and all of my pride.  For the entire first year at my current store, I was basically just taking up space.  It wasn’t that I didn’t want to be there.  I was humiliated, I was wounded, and I felt like I’d just been reduced to a child again.

And then I did a dumb thing.  I decided to try to drive to Pennsylvania in a snow storm to pick up a dining room table, and I did not much care if I made it or not.  I did not, in fact, make it.  God, though?  God has a funny way of reaching out, plucking you up and putting you in the palm of his hand.  I misjudged my ability to stop in time on approach to the stoplight at Billingsley Road in White Plains, Maryland, and slid through the intersection after the light had turned red, standing on the brake, knowing something bad was about to happen.  Somehow, miraculously, what happened was not so very bad.  I did total a lady’s car.  She happens to be the most beautiful lady I have ever seen in my life.  She was not hurt.  Nobody was hurt.  We hugged each other, she cried, and I thanked the Lord that I had not injured this beautiful, wonderful person.  It is absurd that I fell for her in that moment, standing in the snow in southern Maryland, snow in her hair, my insides like jelly.  But it is also a kind of miracle.  Although we did not end up together – she did seem to consider it, but I lost out to another guy, alas – she and I are friends.  And, better still, I came to understand something that day, standing in a pool of warmth by the exhaust of a fire truck.  I came to understand that the designs we have for our lives are basically inconsequential, because God’s plan overrides all, and his plans are to benefit us and not ruin us.  I was feeling ugly, when I got in the truck that afternoon.  I felt like dying.  Instead I was reminded of beauty, of the preciousness of life and the wonder of chance.  Of snow in a pretty girl’s hair.  I was reminded that the world is a pretty good place, when you stay in the field under the light of the universe, rather than hiding in the thorns with the wolf.

That was the day, more than two years ago now, when I finally surrendered my will to God.  Now I know that some of you reading this, are not religious.  Some of you will think I’m crazy.  I’m completely okay with that.  But I look at a guy like Chris Cornell, who had more talent than I do, who was good-looking and successful and had three children, and I feel like hell that he’s gone, because I know the wolf got him.  I hate that wolf.

I think about Autumn Snyder, and then I think about Zack and Deborah, talented filmmakers, Zack is a great artist, again, more talent than I can imagine.  I think about what stopped me from seriously considering the window that night at Longwood so many years ago, and then I think about Autumn, and I know why Zack had to quit the movie.  He feels like he failed her.  It isn’t your fault, Zack.  You, and Deborah, it isn’t your fault.  It’s the damn wolf.

That will not be me.  The wolf will not eat me.  I will eat the wolf.  I will eat the wolf raw, with the fur still attached, and I will swallow it whole.  I am a warrior.  I will live.  I will live for the will of God, I will live for the joy of discovery.  For snow in a pretty girl’s hair.  My God, but it’s a beautiful world.

London Fog

I don’t remember the date.  Not to the day.  I don’t remember the date, but it was spring, thirty-one years ago, 1986.  I was nine years old, riding on a British Airways 747 with my mom and dad, on final approach to Heathrow.  We had crossed the Atlantic overnight.  The cabin was roomy, the seats reclined comfortably, and the stewardesses – air hostesses? – had handed out small pillows and blankets.  I hadn’t slept much, I was too excited to be out of the country for the first time, but I feel sure I slept some.  The in-flight movie was “Young Sherlock Holmes.”

Window shades were going up around the cabin, and I plugged a pair of white plastic airline headphones into the jack in the arm of my chair, futzing with the ridged wheel until the hums and clicks gave way to British voices, giving a weather report.  That was the moment it became real.  England.  The big airliner bellied down out of the golden sunrise, into the cloud cover, and the misty overcast of a London dawn.  Parents reminding me to keep swallowing so my ears will pop during the pressure change.

Heathrow is a blur in my memory, people scrambling about, in jackets and ties, flashing yellow lights, locked doors to maintenance areas, being hauled around by the arm through a massive airport in a foreign land.  I think we took one of the big red buses from the airport to the hotel where the government had arranged for us to stay.  We rode on the upper deck of the bus, open-air, clutching the bare metal handrail in front of us, an old bald man in a tweed coat sitting across the aisle.  See, although it was an adventure for the family, for my dad it was also a business trip.  As a civilian employee of the United States Navy, my father had been sent to London, if my memory serves me for two weeks to work on a project with some people from the British government.

A couple of years before a man named Ian Melville had been sent from England to work with our people on base, an assignment that lasted maybe two years, and had necessitated the relocation of his wife and three daughters to our small town in Virginia.  The middle daughter, Melanie, was in my class.  This was a short visit for us, but we were to meet up with the Melvilles for dinner one night when we were in London.  It happened somewhere deep into the trip.  Dinner turned out to be a large group of us seated around a long, narrow wooden table in the upstairs dining room of a dark, atmospheric pub where old bottles doubled as candlesticks, covered with many years worth of colorful wax drippings.  I remember I sat across the table from Ian’s wife, Jane, somewhat disappointed that Melanie and her sisters wouldn’t be joining us.  Melanie was a friend, we’d had some good times.

That first morning, though, our bus ride to our hotel ended at what turned out to be a monolithic, glassy modern box called the London Tara Hotel (now the Copthorne Tara Kensington, I believe).  I remember the lobby contained the first digital LED scrolling message board I had ever seen, high on the wall behind the check-in counter.  It bears repeating that I was nine years old, bucktoothed and mop-headed, tortoise-frame glasses, corduroys, grey sneakers, and a red VMI zip-front hoodie with white stripes around the biceps.  Everything I knew about England I’d seen on TV or in movies, Dickens and Conan-Doyle.  I didn’t know what had happened to London over the course of its existence.  The fires, the Blitz.  I had no idea the old city was like a phoenix, rising endlessly from its own ashes.

This is an entirely different bit of iron fence.

It bears mentioning as well that as an American, I’m used to a country where the greatest threat to historical buildings is mere progress; where whole swaths of our past are dutifully registered and preserved and have never been bombed by enemy aircraft in times of war.  Founded in 43 AD, London is old, to be sure; the wagon-wheel layout of its streets tells the tale of its Roman origins.  But precious little of antiquity remains.  So, that first morning as we walked to a small café for breakfast, in spite of the red buses and iconic black cabs running to and fro, my nine year-old brain could not accept that I was really in London, for real, until the sidewalk at long last took us past a cast iron fence like a rack of spears, outlining the garden front of a Victorian townhouse.  I’m pretty sure I made a big deal of it to my parents, and they probably wondered what the hell was wrong was me.

And then we were in the café, little round table with a frilly tablecloth, cups of coffee for the adults, and scones all around.  I remember being disappointed with scones.  I also remember my dad, who takes his coffee black, being instructed that English coffee is made to be taken with cream and would probably be fairly insufferable black.  I’m pretty sure he tried it anyway.  I would have.  Black is the correct way to drink coffee.

This was a long time ago, before The Shard, before the Millennium Wheel.  I remember walking across Westminster Bridge one evening, excited to see Big Ben, and picking up off the sidewalk a smiley face button.  Somewhere I still have it.  We did a lot of sightseeing.  The Tower of London.  The Tower Bridge.  Kensington Gardens, Marble Arch, Piccadilly Circus, Trafalgar Square, Westminster Abbey, The Houses of Parliament.  The Changing of the Guard at Buckingham Palace.  There were numerous parks and gardens.  In one park, standing on a footbridge over a stream, an old man was feeding sparrows out of hand.  He showed us how to do it, though I had trouble holding still long enough for the birds to come.  Finally they did.  I think my affection for birds may be that old guy’s fault, and I am eternally grateful.

If you’ve ever seen “An American Werewolf in London,” that is exactly London as I remember it.  Minus the werewolf, of course, but the proliferation of punk rockers in engineer boots and black leather jackets, all zippers and snaps and buckles, with brightly-colored spiked mohawk haircuts and creatively pierced faces is something I remember seeing everywhere I looked, all of them toting guitar cases and trying to look bad.  London in the 80’s.

Silly string was also a fad; I had never encountered it before but the sidewalks and street signs were lousy with the stuff, everywhere you looked some would-be Spiderman had pissed silly string out of a can across the totality of London.

The back half of our trip was mainly spent in Bath, which city we arrived in by train, prehistoric hill figures (perhaps the Uffington White Horse?) visible from the windows on the way by.  One of my dad’s colleagues had his luggage stolen off that train.  This fellow and his wife were well-dressed and she had brought all her good jewelry.  My mom, being somewhat more practical, or perhaps paranoid, had not brought much in the way of jewelry and she and I toured London and Bath wearing hoodies.  She wasn’t taking any chances, and I think that day on the train she felt as vindicated as anyone ever has in the history of human civilization.

All I remember from Bath is Bath Abbey, with the Jacob’s Ladder motif up the front of the building, and the actual Roman baths from which the city gets its name.  I remember the hotel we stayed in there being a much older, statelier affair, a suite of rooms this time rather than a modern two-bed hotel room.  I remember I had my own room there, and a desk at which I remember doing math homework – yes my teachers had sent along a lesson plan for me while I was traveling abroad.  At this particular hotel in bath, every morning when housekeeping made up the room they would leave chocolate bars on the pillows.  One day I took a bus with mom and some of the other ladies to another nearby city – Bristol, perhaps? – to do some shopping.  I remember wet cobblestones and a large record store, the largest I’ve ever seen, possibly an HMV.  I remember browing KISS records.  Yes, records, 33’s.  Thinking how cool it would be to come home with a copy of ALIVE II I’d bought in England.  Of course, I didn’t have any money.  I was nine.

I remember one day, towards the end of our stay in England, Mom was in a small urban dress shop looking at a kilt, which she did buy, and I was playing with a car or something and stupidly ended up by the front door, when a customer pushed in and scraped two of my fingers somewhat nastily with the bottom of the door.  She kept apologizing, and mom rightly pointed out that it was my fault because I was in front of the door.  I was mad, but I was also nine, and it was absolutely my fault.  Couple of band-aids later I was over it.  One of the last days I got, in a card shop, a set of little ceramic figures of the characters from Disney’s The Fox and the Hound – my favorite Disney movie – in fact the only one I have any attachment to.  I came home with those, and two other souvenirs: die cast replicas of a London taxi and a red double-decker bus, which were available at pretty much any souvenir shop throughout London.  I wanted to get the police car to complete the set, but I never did.  The police cars weren’t that great anyway; small white hatchbacks with bright orange stripes down the side and little blue bubble lights.

Why did I choose now to recount all of this?  I don’t know, really, it was on my mind Wednesday and I thought maybe, at 40, I should write all of this down while I still remember a good amount of it.  Maybe, too, it’s because I keep thinking about how much I miss traveling and how much I’d love to get a lot more of it in, if only I had the money and a lady friend to share the experiences with.  A little piece of my heart has been there in London, staring at that one little bit of iron fence for thirty-one years.

Maybe also it’s something more.  Maybe it’s because of the jackass who attacked people outside the parliament building on Wednesday.  Maybe I just wanted to say, hey, London: I love you.

How Bill Paxton Made Me A Better Writer

I know I’ve been somewhat delinquent in updating.  The truth is, it takes many hours to write one of these.  Multiple days if I wanted to do it better than I have been so far.  But I have a day job and more than once I’ve gotten home from work at 8pm, gotten something to eat, and started one of these articles only to finally post it at 5 or 6am before taking a shower during which I fall asleep multiple times, then crawl into bed and log about four hours of snooze time before I have to get up and start getting ready for work.  And then my employer wonders why I don’t seem to have any energy.

So I worked seven days straight last week, and then spent three recovering, and spending a little time with friends and family.  Yesterday at work it felt like my only speed was reverse.  Anyway this is a long way of saying, this article is a week overdue but I’ve known all week that I wanted to write it.  This is the story of how Bill Paxton made me a better writer.

No, I never met him.  This story goes back to my years studying Art at Longwood University (or Longwood College as it was then known).  After a tumultuous freshman year during which I experienced a bit of culture shock while steadfastly refusing to sell out my personal values, I settled into a kind of rhythm in my sophomore year that carried me all the way through to graduation.  I found my people, and surrounded myself with them, and I always knew that no matter how crappy a given day was, it would end with time spent among friends.  It is friendship that got me through.

That sophomore year that established this structure, I was sharing a dorm room with a guy named Wayne, whom I had known from my freshman hall.  Wayne is absolutely one of my people, and he helped me find the others.  Sophomore year we shared a suite in Frasier hall with two guys named Nayan and Mikee.  Nayan was a science major, who also happened to be an incredible guitarist with a love of blues and alternative rock, and Mikee was a skater who was studying commercial art.  Two of the nicest guys I ever knew, and the four of us, though we had different interests, were united by our love of movies.

Now as a kid, I didn’t get to the theater all that much.  My earliest memories of the movie theater are seeing “Stir Crazy” in the movie theater on base in Dahlgren – making the “we bad” scene a part of my personal head canon that none of my friends ever understood – and the Robert Redford baseball movie “The Natural.”  I remember seeing “The Empire Strikes Back” and “Back to the Future,” but my parents have never been big on going to the movie theater, and until I was old enough to go to the movies myself or with my friends, I only got to go once in a while.

So in college, I had a lot of catching up to do as far as seeing movies I’d missed out on in my childhood.  Wayne and I would rent a few movies on a Friday night and often they were ones he liked and that I had never seen.  The ones I liked I’d end up buying for my collection and then we’d watch them often.  I’d put a movie on while I worked on a painting, maybe we’d have “Empire” in while we were doing homework.  We communicated almost exclusively in movie quotes.

Among the movies Wayne introduced me to, and that I loved and added to my collection, was the Alien Trilogy (for at the time, three is all there were).  If I remember correctly, it was Nayan who knew somebody who had the director’s cut of Aliens, a VHS tape dubbed from a laser disc, which not even Wayne had seen.  And “Aliens” is one of the movies that most influences me as a storyteller.  It’s on the short list with RoboCop and the Star Wars Trilogy in terms of movies that taught me about storytelling, and as quotable as the original “Ghostbusters,” or “Die Hard,” both of which I would easily place alongside “RoboCop,” “The Empire Strikes Back,” and “Raiders of the Lost Ark” on the list of 80’s movies that are among the most perfect films ever made.

Everything about “Aliens” functions beautifully as well.  You may remember this article that I wrote recently about how the audience can accept almost anything if they have a good surrogate among the main cast who echoes their own feelings and perceptions.  “Aliens” is a movie that understands that.  It opens more or less where “Alien” left off, with Ripley and her cat Jones, in cryogenic sleep aboard the escape pod after destroying the Nostromo and blowing the Alien drone out of the airlock.

She’s discovered by a deep salvage crew, and wakes up in a med bay to learn that she’s been adrift in space for 57 years, and everyone she knew, including her daughter whose 11th birthday she had hoped to be home in time for, has died.  Haunted by the memory of her ordeal aboard Nostromo and buried under two layers of survivor’s guilt, Ripley has taken a job as a dockworker, and sees a therapist regularly.  She is miserable, and probably suffering from PTSD, though I would say this last piece is only clearly demonstrated in the third film.

Then, of course, the Weyland-Yutani corporation loses contact with the colony “Hadley’s Hope” on LV-426, and deploys a squad of space marines to investigate.  LV-426 is the planet where the wrecked spacecraft was discovered by the Nostromo crew in the original film, with its chamber full of eggs, where John Hurt was attacked by the facehugger that planted the embryo in his body, which so dramatically burst out of his chest in that first film’s most iconic scene.

In the director’s cut of “Aliens,” of course, we’ve already watched as a family in a rover discovers the same wreck, and as the mother frantically drags the father, with facehugger attached, back to the rover in full view of the children, her daughter screaming hysterically as she radios for help.

Paul Reiser, who plays a Weyland-Yutani officer named Burke, recruits Ripley to join to the expedition to LV-426 as she is the closest thing they have to an expert on the aliens, being the only known survivor of an alien attack.  This also gives her a chance to face the thing that haunts her nightmares, and to try to reclaim control of her life.

Throughout the beginning of the film, Ripley is the outsider.  Nobody believes her about the alien until Hadley’s Hope goes dark.  Even then they’re skeptical.  And we, as the audience, have seen the first film and know that Ripley’s telling the truth.  But moving forward, we’re going into territory that’s going to be familiar yet horribly difficult for Ripley, and James Cameron knew that there would be people who watched his movie who never saw the first one.  So, while Ripley is a fine surrogate for those of us who know what happened to her in the first movie, the newcomers will need a new surrogate.

Enter Bill Paxton, as Private William Hudson.  PFC Hudson is mouthy, emotional and erratic: in short he’s the guy the rest of the squad probably wishes were not with them, because a guy like that can get you killed in combat.  But from a storytelling perspective he’s crucial.  The reason is simple.  Watch every scene that Hudson is in, particularly when we first meet the marines.  By being the wise-ass who torques everybody, he gives the rest of the characters a chance to show us who they are.

Whether it’s Sergeant Apone (above) or PFC Vasquez, Hudson’s antics are the catalyst for them to show their personalities and attitudes.  It’s simple and effective.

Hudson is also the conduit by which we find out that Lance Henriksen’s character is a synthetic – which freaks out Ripley given what happened between her and Ian Holm’s character Ash in the original.

Then, as the action ramps up and the film intensifies, Hudson’s attitude creates levity for the viewer, which keeps everything from getting too heavy, something that would probably make a film about phallus-headed cockroach aliens collapse very quickly into the realm of farce.  He keeps the audience laughing no matter how horrible things get within the context of the movie itself.  He’s a joker, a cynic, a wise-ass.  In short, if you want new audience members to buy into this kind of madness, you need Hudson.  I learned that lesson, about audience surrogates, from watching this movie until I could just about quote it end-to-end.

It’s telling, I think, that when Hudson finally exits the film, it’s at a time when the number of characters has been scaled back to just a few, where the time for joking has passed, and where if the audience is not now onboard, they never will be.  It’s just Ripley, Corporal Dwayne Hicks, Newt, and Lance Henriksen’s synthetic, Bishop.  It’s also important to note that Hudson never upstages Ripley as the main character.  Hudson’s moments are standouts, but he’s almost entirely unmanned when the drop ship crashes on the way to pull them out, and it’s Ripley who settles him down.  It’s Ripley who, having lived through the nightmare aboard the Nostromo, never loses her wits in the horrors of Hadley’s Hope.  She’s a mama bear, she takes charge and in the end, it’s Ripley who takes out the Alien queen and gets Newt, Hicks, and what’s left of Bishop to safety.

Ripley is absolutely the hero of the film, but Hudson gets the job of making her show us why.  In many ways it’s a thankless task, playing the ass, but Bill Paxton did it so well that he’s remembered for it, probably more than any other role he played.  I was always happy to see him in anything I was watching.  The fact that he was Hudson made him a favorite of fanboys like me.  It was upsetting to hear that he had passed away, but I am truly thankful for the work that he did.  My life would not be the same without PFC Hudson and his smart mouth, and I would not be the storyteller that I am.  So, Bill Paxton, thank you for the good work, sir.  Godspeed.

Star Wars and Economics, Part Two

NOTE:  This is Part Two of a two-part series.  If you haven’t read the first part, you can find it by clicking this link.

Last time, we took a look at the clues in the Original Trilogy of the Star Wars Saga to determine as much as possible about the economic situation in the First Galactic Empire, and came to the rather obvious conclusion, which I hope we all already were aware of, that the Empire is a military dictatorship.  Hopefully we have added to that, the understanding that in a dictatorship the government controls the production and distribution of goods and services.

To be clear, this means there are no private businesses.  All business is state business, and therefore Imperial Subjects would all work for the state, and be paid by the state.  In this model all money not only originates with the state, but returns to it as well, as there is literally nobody else to trade with.  Money in this context is little more than a government voucher.  As stated in part one, this is just slavery by another name.  That should give you a pretty clear picture of what the Rebel Alliance was fighting to get free of.

Here in Part Two we will examine the Prequel Trilogy to see what new information we can gather from those films.  This will be fairly illuminating as the prequels are very political in their focus, and as we will soon see, Palpatine’s rise to power is predicated almost entirely on economic factors.  From the opening crawl of “Menace,” we are told that the taxation of trade routes to outlying star systems is in dispute, and that a group called the Trade Federation has created a blockade to stop all shipping to the planet of Naboo.  We are given to understand that this is somewhat unprecedented, and that the Galactic Senate is doing an awful lot of talking about it and not much acting to settle it, so Supreme Chancellor Valorum has dispatched a couple of Jedi Knights, aboard a small diplomatic vessel called Radiant VII, to mediate the conflict.

The Trade Federation would be a massive conglomerate, a number of huge shipping companies and possibly other mercantile operations, joined together for shared security.  The Galactic Republic has no standing army, but apparently it is legal for each member civilization within the Republic to have its own military organization and its own unique system of government, and it seems that huge conglomerates like the Trade Federation have similar rights, so they have a fleet and an army in order to protect their interests – hence the blockade, which they make sure to remind the Jedi and their escorts at the beginning of the film, “is perfectly legal.”

We can surmise that the trade routes are being taxed by the Republic, and that the Trade Federation is obviously unhappy about it because it’s cutting into their profit margins.  The text of the crawl also paints the Trade Federation as “greedy,” – Lucas’s exact word choice – which is a clear signal to the viewer that the Federation are the bad guys here, bullying this little planet over profits.

Likely this shipping tax has already raised the price of goods and services for the people of Naboo (and other worlds for which trade is affected by the tax) but depending on the needs of the Naboo, they may simply decide to reduce the amount of importing they do.  This would not be solved with a blockade, unless some measure of imports are necessary for the survival of their civilization, or if they are a planet whose economy is supported by a healthy export business, which would obviously also be affected by the tax.

George Lucas is the master of visual clues (my main man Zack Snyder is masterful with them as well), so what can we deduce from what we are shown of Naboo?  The planet is populated by at least two civilizations who have had limited contact – first, the human inhabitants, who identify themselves as “the Naboo,” and the amphibious Gungans, who are a technologically advanced race living within a tribal system.  They Gungans are insular and reclusive, preferring to remain mostly in their submarine home of Gunga City.

The Naboo, however, are spacefarers, whose ships are elegant, shiny and chrome, and they live in classically styled renaissance-type buildings, their cities resplendent with canals and massive statuary.  This is an intentional choice by Lucas, and not just because he wanted to film in Italy and Spain.  This choice shows us that the Naboo are artists, poets, and philosophers.  Remember that in Star Wars, planets are one thing: Desert, Jungle, Blizzard, Swamp, Sky, Redwood forest… Naboo is the Liberal Arts Planet.  The Renaissance Planet.  This is supported by even the smallest details, like the Queen’s kabuki makeup and the Gungan chief basically calling them a bunch of pointyheads.  And damn if the people in the Queen’s court aren’t dressed like they’re in a play about Christopher Columbus and Queen Isabella.

Probably they export a lot of art and craftworks, and the blockade would be a serious issue because despite what people think, artists do what they do for more than just the sheer enjoyment of it.  Artists like eating and living in houses as much as anyone.  It takes time to create anything worthwhile, and it’s much more satisfying, as well as conducive to the overall quality of the product, if you can make enough money from your art to survive on it.

At any rate, it’s fair to say that there is mostly free trade in the Galactic Republic.  I say “mostly” because the tax on the trade routes represents a form of regulation.  The question, and probably an unanswerable one, is how much regulation there is besides that.  The fact that a little old tax has led to a situation described in the opening crawl as, “turmoil has engulfed the Galactic Republic” probably suggests that regulation has previously been next to none.  Apparently, also fairly rare is armed conflict, as Sio Bibble is fond of pointing out that “there hasn’t been a full-scale war since the formation of the Republic!”

Of note is the fact that one man has played both sides of this.  The Senator from Naboo, Sheev Palpatine, is also a Dark Lord of the Sith, who goes by the name of Darth Sidious.  This isn’t revealed until Episode III, but if you’re a fan (or really good at recognizing chins) you knew it from the beginning.  The Trade Federation is shown to be in league with Darth Sidious, even as Senator Palpatine is advising Queen Amidala of the Naboo.

He advises Amidala to accept Federation control of Naboo, knowing full well that she won’t, while he works to spur the senate into action; meanwhile under the guise of Sidious he tells Federation Viceroy Nute Gunray to assassinate the two visiting Jedi and invade Naboo, occupying the capital city of Theed.  He even tells Gunray that “Queen Amidala is young and naïve.  You will find controlling her will not be difficult.”  He’s looking to escalate the conflict in the hope of generating enough sympathy in the senate to challenge Chancellor Valorum’s seat.

I don’t think he necessarily intended for the Jedi to survive the Federation’s assassination attempt, nor for them to break the blockade and escape offworld with Queen Amidala and her entourage, but the delight on his face when she arrived on the Republic Capital of Coruscant and rushed straight to his office to discuss their next move was probably genuine.  After all, he gets to play the gentle soul while Amidala, in all her fiery, youthful glory, appears before the senate and demands that they resolve the conflict swiftly.  “I was not elected to watch my people suffer and die while you discuss this invasion in a committee!”

Palpatine has stacked the deck, though; Chancellor Valorum has, by Palpatine’s account, “little real power.  He has been mired by – baseless – accusations of corruption.”  Soon afterward, as Queen Amidala asks for the senate to act, several senators refuse to believe that the invasion is really taking place, or that there have been any deaths at all.  The Trade Federation has representation in the senate (which is fairly alarming) and denies any wrongdoing.

Now, as the pressure mounts for the Chancellor to lead the way, the bureaucrats step in and talk him down, and suddenly he shrinks back, buckling under pressure from the special interests to form a committee and investigate the veracity of the Queen’s claims.  She can’t wait for a senate committee, of course, it’ll be a year or more while her planet remains occupied by the Federation.  Palpatine, ever the master persuader, suggests they could take it to the supreme court, and the Queen is disheartened, knowing that this will likely take even longer than waiting on some useless senate committee.  So, with masterfully played reluctance, Palpatine suggests that the queen could call for a vote of No Confidence in the chancellor, and watches with satisfaction as she does exactly that.

The senate votes Valorum out of the chancellery and, in a sympathetic reaction to the conflict on Naboo, the senate elects Palpatine to replace him.

By Episode II, entitled Attack of the Clones, ten years have passed and a separatist movement has sprung up.  The opening crawl says that a number of star systems have announced their intentions to leave the Republic, but we’re not told why.  However when we meet the separatists, they seem to largely be made up huge conglomerates like the Trade Federation.  The others we meet have names like InterGalactic Banking Clan, the Techno Union, the Hyper-Communications Cartel, the Commerce Guild.

The separatists are under the leadership of a former Jedi with political ambitions, who goes by the name of Count Dooku.  Dooku is actually Darth Sidious’ new apprentice, Darth Tyranus, and he’s a plant because the Trade Federation knows that Sidious played them.  In order to continue to manipulate them, Sidious needs a middle man.  Since Palpatine/Sidious is always playing two sides, and since the separatists are all massive conglomerates with interests in the production and distribution of goods and services, we can safely conclude that as chancellor, Palpatine has applied a very liberal helping of trade regulations.  This would serve him well as it shows clearly that he is not like the feckless Valorum, and makes perfect sense as a platform for a chancellor whose homeworld was famously victim of a bloody invasion by a militant trade conglomerate.  In effect, this is what he was elected to do.

His dual identity has allowed him to continue escalating the conflict, by pitting the people against big business; in effect turning the common people against the rich, driving a narrative of regulation vs. corruption and greed.  The Separatist Union, being comprised of mostly giant businesses and their supporters, has the resources to mount an army, and begins doing so, quietly, on the strength of the Trade Federation’s droid army and its manufacturer, Geonosian Industries.

The increasing conflict has overwhelmed the relatively small Jedi Order, and Supreme Chancellor Palpatine has begun pushing for the senate to commission an Army of the Republic in order to back up the Jedi and protect the Republic’s member nations.  Senator Padme Naberrie Amidala, the former Queen of Naboo, is nearly assassinated upon her arrival on Coruscant where she would surely have voted against commissioning an army.  All of this acts as a distraction that splits up Jedi Knights Anakin Skywalker and Obi-Wan Kenobi on separate missions – at the chancellor’s request – while the separatists are developing plans for a very familiar planet-killing superweapon.

Obi-Wan, attempting to track down the would-be-assassin, ends up on the ocean world of Kamino, where he discovers a large cloning operation, creating an army they claim was ordered by a Jedi Master whom Obi-Wan knows to have been dead at the time the order was placed.  Still, the army is for the Republic, and the Kaminoan cloners happily show Obi-Wan around the facility.  Of course Anakin and Padme’s paths intersect with Obi-Wan’s by the end of the movie, on the termite-mound planet of Geonosis, where they are all to be executed in a gladiator arena, having been captured by the separatists.

By this time, though, Jar Jar Binks, now a Junior Representative for the Gungans in the Senate, was convinced to propose the Emergency Powers Act.  When the vote passed, Palpatine, promising to lay down the powers as soon as the crisis was averted, immediately issued an Executive Order commissioning “a Grand Army of the Republic, to counter the increasing threats of the separatists.”

Yoda was sent to Kamino to pick up the first wave of Clone Troopers, while the rest of the available Jedi converged on Geonosis and tried to bail out Obi-Wan, Anakin and Padme.  Yoda arrived with the cavalry just in time to back up the depleted Jedi ranks, and the first battle of the Clone Wars raged across the planet.  By the end of the film, Bail Organa and the rest of the Loyalist Committee stood by in despair as a legion of Clone Troopers arrived on Coruscant on huge Corellian cruisers.

Now Palpatine’s Machiavellian plan is in full force.  The captains of commerce and industry are standing on one side, the leaders of the free galaxy on the other, and he controls both sides.  He effectively has two ways to win.

In Episode III: Revenge of the Sith, it’s been some three years since the Battle of Geonosis.  The Separatists are kicking some serious ass, and in a metaphorical sense, everything is on fire.  They’ve gained so much ground they’re able to kidnap Chancellor Palpatine before the movie starts.  Naturally Palpatine wanted this, it’s the natural escalation of the conflict, but it also serves to let him pit his favorite young Jedi, Anakin Skywalker, against his existing apprentice, Darth Tyranus, who is doing his existing in something of a state of decrepitude.

As Palpatine begins to make his persuasive case for Skywalker to join him, he chooses to reveal his true nature.  When the Jedi move against Palpatine, this plays directly into a narrative he has created by having the clone army ordered from Kamino in the name of a dead Jedi Master, and by having a former Jedi head the separatist movement.  As Anakin defends Palpatine against Mace Windu and his posse, this not only seals Skywalker’s fate, but allows Palpatine to finally cast the Jedi as traitors to the Republic, effectively making Anakin, the newly-minted Darth Vader, his champion and lord defender of the realm, as it were.  Using this extra layer of chaos to justify his last push for supreme power, Palpatine activates a secret piece of genetic programming in the Clones, authorizing them to use deadly force to put down their Jedi generals, and sending Lord Vader to slaughter all the children in the Jedi Temple.

With that done, Palpatine reassigns Anakin to go to the secret lair of the Separatist Council and murder them all, thus ending the conflict and bringing all means of production and distribution directly under state control.  Palpatine appears before the Galactic Senate, announcing that “the Republic shall be reorganized into the First Galactic Empire, in order to create a safe and secure society.”

There are a few takeaways from this.  The first is that this absolutely confirms my reading from Part One of this essay: that the Empire controls all means of production and distribution of goods and services throughout the Star Wars galaxy.

In your face, Randal!

It also fits Lucas’s overall theme for the prequels, which is greed.  Greed turned Anakin Skywalker into Darth Vader.  But it also drove the Republic into corruption, and drove the Trade Federation into working with a Sith Lord.  Greed divides us, and love unites us, and that, my friends, is Star Wars in once sentence.

Are there lessons here for us today?  Oh, absolutely.  I can think of a million of them.  Our current president is a persuader, a trait he shares with Palpatine.  He also is creating a rather hectic tone in Washington, and is manipulating the media in ways both obvious and subtle (there are layers).

However, I don’t hold anyone blameless.  Most of the media is dishonest most of the time.  One major party wants to create conflict between the rich and the rest of us.  The other party talks about the free market but loves to wield authority just as heavily as the other.

Corruption is everywhere.  At least our industries don’t have senators, but they do have lobbyists, which nets the same result in the end.  It’s all a bit terrifying and it’s hard to know which way to turn.  However, a few things are obvious.

Both president GW Bush and President Obama, gave themselves more power than presidents had before.  And now we have this guy, who I still maintain is probably not the second coming of Hitler.  However, he is a persuader and that can be terribly effective, either in a good way or a bad one, depending solely on intent.  And the fact that trust is not something he inspires in the American people, makes it difficult for most to expect anything good.  Especially when his policies go against what half of the country apparently believes in.

So…the guy talks abut Civil Asset Forfeiture?  BAD.  Guy talks about reducing government regulation?  Good.

The most important thing, however, is the free market.  As long as we have a free market, we have the means to control our own destiny.  As long as the government does not control the flow of money, we are not slaves, but free men and free women.

I talk a lot about balance.  You hear me borrow a phrase from some of my anarcho-capitalist friends.  I’m not one, but I know a few, and I like them.  They talk about how government is literally evil.  You hear me basically lean into that when talking about liberty.  What nobody ever asks me, is if I think government is necessary.  Like I said, I’m not an anarchist.  I DO believe government is necessary.  I also believe that it is basically the opposite of freedom, since in order for government to exist, you have to give something up.  That’s just the way it works.  So we give up some freedom in exchange for security.  Taxation is theft, but it buys safety in the form of police, firefighters, and armed forces.  Yet some of these people are not very popular right now with a lot of taxpayers.  Just think about it, is all I’m saying.  You get mad when your tax dollars go to pay for stuff you don’t like.

The more power you give government, the more freedom you give up, right?  I had a liberal friend-of-a-friend recently tell me that we’re not free, and she said it like it was a good thing.  I basically stopped arguing with her after that because in my mind she’d just torpedoed her own ship.  Any impartial reader would have walked away from her side of the table after that.  Cognitive dissonance is an amazing thing.

Just remember, the First Galactic Empire — like Adolf Hitler’s Nationalist Socialist movement – was all about peace, through the eradication of conflict.  Palpatine actually utters the phrase, “safe and secure society.”  He literally stole all the freedom so he could have security in power.  In his mind he really thought this was better, because there’d be no conflict he couldn’t end, no war he couldn’t win, no wrong he couldn’t right (actually no right he couldn’t wrong, if we’re being honest, but he wouldn’t have called it that way).

So, here’s my point.  Greed is bad.  Don’t be greedy.  But be careful who you give things away to.  Don’t give your power to the Sheev Palpatines of the world.  Don’t even put your power where it can be used against you.  If Trump does turn out to be evil, it won’t merely be the fault of people who voted for him.  It will be the fault of every single politician who gave the presidency more power, of every congress that undermined the checks and balances in the constitution, and of every voter who didn’t participate when they had the chance.

Don’t be greedy, but don’t cast your pearls before swine.

Don’t breed division, but don’t fear conflict.  Fearing conflict leads to the need to squash differences of opinion, which leads to a lust for power, and that IS greed.

Respect differences.  Don’t hate, don’t fear.  Talk.

Be rational dissidents.

Star Wars and Economics, Part One

Star Wars is one of those things that is applicable in nearly every area of life.  I mean it doesn’t have much useful relationship advice, I’m afraid, but apart from that it’s pretty solidly on point.  Now, I post a lot about politics and I post a lot about popular culture, and it’s always interesting to me when I can bring the two together.

As it happens, Star Wars is very much about economics.  I realize it doesn’t seem that way, crazy movies about magic warriors with swords made of lasers and super weapons with embarrassing fatal flaws, of bickering robots and annoying-ass frog aliens who ruin your enjoyment of the prequels.  But Star Wars was one of the first entertainment properties in my life that proved stories could keep on giving, almost indefinitely, when they were built properly.

I’m not alone in that.  My generation is almost defined by our love of Star Wars.  If you don’t believe me, ask Disney’s bankers.  Hell, Kevin Smith has basically made a career out of being a fan.  Remember this scene from Clerks?

It’s funny, but it’s also bullshit.  I mean, that’s okay, it can be bullshit, it’s Randal.  Randal’s hardly a bastion of reason and sanity.  And Kevin Smith was making a comedy.  Still, I always feel the need to tell anyone who will listen that there’s no such thing as independent contractors in the First Galactic Empire.  The reason is simple economics.

Don’t believe me?  Let’s begin with the Original Trilogy and try to understand, from clues in the films, what kind of economic structure the empire has.

In the first film, retroactively titled “Episode IV: A New Hope,” there are many clues about the structure of the empire.  Let’s start with life on the desert world of Tattooine.  Luke Skywalker lives with his uncle, Owen Lars, and aunt, Beru Lars (nee Whitesun).  They’re farmers, in the middle of the desert.  The landscape is dotted with these odd antenna-like structures called vaporators.  The vaporators pull moisture, either from deep in the ground, or from the air, and use it to feed the crops.

Given Owen’s talk about hiring more hands the following year, and being unwilling to let Luke leave for the Imperial Academy until next season, it seems the Lars farm is rather large, so they’re probably commercial farmers.  Seems all very familiar to our own reality, right?  Given that Luke’s landspeeder (Star Wars for “car,”) is battered, scorched, and missing an engine cover; and given also that Uncle Owen buys his droids on the black market from scavenging Jawas who sell whatever useful stuff they find to farmers and frontiersmen they come into contact with, we may deduce that the money is tight, and that this is a backwater star system, far removed from the usual business of the Empire.

Additionally, we never see how goods move offworld, or the market where goods are bought and sold.  So we don’t know for sure if the Empire controls it, or not.  It’s actually fairly unclear if Tattooine is part of the Empire, or is an independent system.  It’s referred to as being along the Outer Rim, meaning it’s a fairly remote part of the galaxy, not one of the core systems, and as far as we can tell in the movie, the only imperial presence there follows Princess Leia’s corvette, the Tantive IV, into the system during the opening moments of the film.  It doesn’t look like the Empire would have much interest in a sun-scorched ball of sand, particularly one containing nothing but farmers, nomads and scavengers.  Indeed, when Obi-Wan is trying to recruit Luke to his cause, Luke says, “it’s not that I like the Empire, I hate it, but…that’s all so far away from here.”  Likewise, Obi-Wan, as we come to learn, was trying to hide from the Empire so it makes sense he’d go where the Empire is not.

In fact Tattooine is run by the Hutts, who are notorious gangsters.  But the thing about gangsters, they have legitimate front companies to hide their illegal activities behind.  Jabba, the Hutt who seems to be the boss on Tattooine, is into smuggling.  We know this because we learn that Han Solo, captain of the Corellian light freighter Millennium Falcon, was employed by Jabba when he was detained by an Imperial starship and ditched his illicit cargo in order to avoid getting in trouble.

The best way to think about Han in this context is that he’s actually a truck driver; in fact he is what is known as an independent operator.  He has his own freighter and he hauls what he wants to haul, when he wants to haul it.  This leads me to believe that Jabba is probably responsible for the movement of goods to and from Tattooine.  In this way he can also buy and sell things under the table and use his operators to move contraband in secret, in exchange for some extra, unreported income.

Though it isn’t canon, as far as I know, it has been suggested in various peripheral materials that the shipment Han dumped was Spice.  What “Spice” is, in Star Wars, is never explained, though it’s generally understood to be something like the Spice from Dune.  However at the very beginning of the movie, as C-3PO and R2-D2 are dodging blaster fire during the arrival of the Imperial boarding party on the Tantive IV, Threepio muses that they’ll be “sent to the Spice mines of Kessel, smashed into who-knows-what!”

When Obi-Wan and Luke talk to Han and Chewie in the cantina on Tattooine, Han boasts that Millennium Falcon is “the ship that made the Kessel run in less than twelve parsecs.”  As a parsec is a unit of distance and not time, this claim is nonsense, unless the ship folded space in some way, but what is clear from this is that Han probably has hauled spice.  What is also clear, from Threepio’s remarks, is that the Empire actively mines spice, and uses labor camps as punishment for miscreants.

This would seem to point to the Empire controlling production of goods and services within its own borders, and probably explains why they detained Solo, as they would probably do routine stops of freighters along trade routes.  We have scales for trucks; no doubt they have something analogous to “weighing stations” for starships, even if it’s only boarding and physically inspecting at a chosen port, like you’d do for a seagoing freighter.

Where we do see the Empire, we learn some very important things.  First, we learn that Princess Leia is an Imperial Senator who is secretly a member of what the Empire calls the Rebel Alliance (they call themselves The Alliance to Restore the Republic).  We also learn that the commander of the Death Star, Wilhuff Tarkin, is referred to alternately by his rank of Grand Moff, or the less formal title, “Governor.”  We are also present in the briefing room as Tarkin sweeps in and announces “the Imperial Senate will no longer be of any concern to us; I have just received word that the Emperor has dissolved that council permanently.  The last remnants of the old Republic have been swept away.”

When General Tagge presses the issue, asking how the Emperor will maintain control without the bureaucracy, Tarkin says something else very telling: “The regional governors will now have direct control over their territories.  Fear will keep the local systems in line.  Fear of this battle station.”

It isn’t just that the Empire governs with an iron fist; it’s that Tarkin is a regional governor, as in the Roman Empire.  He wears a uniform, he is a military officer, but he is also a regional governor who will rule over his section of the Empire and report only to Emperor Palpatine.  In other words, what was probably sort of a communist oligarchy is now for certain a military dictatorship.  The last pretense of democracy is gone.

You will also notice visual cues within the Empire.  The interior of the Death Star, and the capital ships, are all grey and austere, bare metal, fluorescent lighting, exposed conduits and open maintenance pits.  On the bridge of the destroyers, the officers stride around on catwalks while the crewmen at their consoles sit in pits below them, forced to look up as a slave to a master.  TIE fighters are simple and geometric, no hyperdrive, no shields; they’re disposable, and so therefore must their pilots also be.  Stormtroopers wear buckets that hide their entire face.  Protection, to be sure, but also dehumanizing, faceless goons with numbers like TK-421 as their identifiers, rather than names.  As we would learn in the prequel trilogy, these are clones, human beings grown for the express purpose of being used as cannon fodder.  Serfs.  Slaves.  This is the way of the First Galactic Empire.  Even the symbol of the Empire is a cog wheel.  Think about that a minute.

Meanwhile the Alliance has rickety starfighters scorched with blaster marks, patched with mismatched sheet metal, paint jobs not maintained; but the ships have shields and hyperdrives.  The pilots are few, they have names and faces, and their lives are precious.

The only new economic information we get in Empire comes when Han, Leia, Chewie, and Threepio, aboard a crippled Millennium Falcon, come limping into port at Lando Calrissian’s tibanna gas mining colony, Cloud City, hovering in the upper atmosphere of a gas giant called Bespin, in the Anoat system.  Anoat, like Tattooine, is a backwater system and Calrissian’s mining colony is shiny and bright, a veneer of respectability across the place.

Han refers to Calrissian as his friend, but makes it clear to Leia and Chewie that he doesn’t trust Lando, “but he’s got no love for the Empire, I can tell you that.”  Almost immediately upon arrival we learn that Millennium Falcon used to belong to Calrissian, apparently put up as collateral and lost, in a card game with Solo.  This seems to still be a point of some contention for Lando, and the two have a tense reunion where all of the humor seems forced and neither man ever seems quite relaxed.  This is at least partially due to something we learn later, which is that the Empire arrived before the Falcon did – after all, the Empire has functioning hyperdrive – and Lando wanted to warn Han off if he could.  The escort shooting at the Falcon, and Lando’s line, “you know seeing you sure brings back a few things,” are subtle hints.

Still, the fact that Calrissian used to own the Falcon suggests that he was once a smuggler, too, and it begs the question, is he still?  Solo pokes him a little, teasing him for being responsible.  Calrissian shrugs it off, sort of noncommittal:  “yeah, I’m responsible these days.  It’s the price you pay for being successful.”  Like much of what Lando says in these scenes, this could easily have a double-meaning, since he’s going to sell out his friend before he’ll destroy his business.  But suppose Lando has become successful in another sense, too, having moved on from hauling contraband, to managing it?

Down in the bowels of Cloud City, there’s a facility called the carbon-freezing chamber.  Here, the tibanna gas is frozen in carbonite slabs for easy transport aboard freighters.  When Darth Vader and his minions arrive, having been summoned by bounty hunter Boba Fett who tracked Millennium Falcon to port, Vader begins making arrangements to lure Skywalker there as well, in order to freeze him in a carbonite slab and transport him, without fuss or muss, to the Emperor.  Of course he plans to test the process on Solo, in case it doesn’t work he doesn’t want to kill Skywalker.

Well, if you can freeze people safely in carbonite, you can do it with damn near anything, and if one were a former smuggler, say, with underworld contacts and a lust for profit, one might see opportunity.  After all, a lot of contraband could be easily frozen inside these slabs and moved across the galaxy with no one the wiser.  When Lando sells out his friend Solo, he says he’s “just made a deal that will keep the Empire out of here forever.”  But when that doesn’t work out for him, he makes a play to free Solo, and fails, then escapes offworld with Leia, Chewie, Luke, and the droids.

The implications are twofold.  First, the Empire will take over Calrissian’s operation.  It’s just what they do.  If there’s usefuless in this mining colony, they want it to be their own.  But, given Vader’s thought for using the carbonite to transport his prisoners, it’s just possible he suspected that Lando was up to no good, whether or not he actually was (of course he was, it’s Lando…).  In either, or both, of these contexts, it makes sense that Lando would want to keep the Empire out, and would flee when he realized that he could not.

In Episode VI: Return of the Jedi, we revisit Tattooine, and this time get acquainted with Jabba.  Depending on your preferred cut of the films, we either only know him by reputation, or have met him only briefly in Docking Bay 94 in the Mos Eisley Spaceport way back in Episode IV.  In either case, here we see his palace, a kind of science-fiction harem with alien slave girls, cruel droids, and an assortment of thieves, thugs, bounty hunters, and smugglers as hangers-on as the band bangs out a few jazzy numbers and Jabba’s girls dance for his pleasure.  Then there’s Jabba himself, a huge, corpulent slug of a thing, sucking on a hookah and swallowing frogs.  He’s done quite well for himself, and all of this begs the question: what kind of an economy creates such an overwhelming market for smuggling?  The answer is, “the kind that’s been over-regulated all to hell.”

The simplest lesson in economics is that he who controls the flow of money, has all the political power; and he who has all the political power, controls the flow of money.  That’s why the free market is a good thing, because the ability of the private citizen to control his or her own money, is that citizen’s power, and freedom.  You choose to support what you believe in, and not support the things you don’t.  That’s your voice.  Nobody should be able to make you buy anything you don’t want.

One of the things the movie “Rogue One” did so well, was it had Mads Mikkelsen’s Galen Erso, a scientist, having turned away from his work because he turned away from the Empire.  He was living as a subsistence farmer on a distant world until the Empire came and found him, and threatened him until he agreed to go back to work for them.  He isn’t hired, he isn’t offered a contract.  He is simply taken, and kept by the Empire, provided with work, lodgings, food, uniform.  It also showed us his daughter, Jyn Erso, as an inmate in an Imperial Labor Camp.  This is exactly what the Empire is in the original trilogy.

Remember, slaves don’t own property, and don’t get paid except in food and lodging.  When the state controls production and distribution of goods and services, and the people work for a share of said goods and services, that is the exact definition of slavery.  The lack of freedom leads to desperation; and when the government is hindering the people, the people will cast off the law and do for themselves according to what they know is right and good.

Well, that’s it for Part One.  In Part Two we’ll explore the Prequel Trilogy, and see if my understanding of the nature of the Empire, and the economic nightmare that is the galaxy far, far away, is corroborated by the story of how the Empire came to be.

Continue to Part Two by clicking this link.

So, About That Clever Meme…

I’ve seen memes like the one below rattling around Facebook for the last week or so, and the sentiment behind it is nothing new.  I hear people asking why people who are Christian would vote Republican — nevermind that a lot of Christians are liberal and vote Democrat exclusively — but the argument is one I have heard so often that, as a Christian, libertarian, and former Republican, I’ve often wanted to answer it, and having this little soapbox upon which to stand, I thought I’d do it.

Never mind the fact that this blatantly misrepresents what anyone actually wants to do…

The United States of America isn’t a theocracy, to begin with.  Let’s start there.  Our government was founded on, among other things, the freedom of religion.  So although many of us are Christian, and try to live out the teachings of Jesus Christ, those teachings are not really foundational to what our country is, or what it stands for.  The United States was founded on the principle that all human beings are endowed by their Creator with certain rights, and that any system of government should not infringe upon those rights, but respect the right of the individual to live his or her life as they see fit, provided that said individual does not infringe upon the rights of others.

Because of this, although many of us may be Christian, the only place that this, and our government, intersect is upon the principal that the government cannot, and should not, prevent us from worshiping as we would.  That goes for members of every religion.  With that said, let’s talk a little bit about that meme, and about the Gospels with regard to government.

Imagine, if you would, that it is December 17th.  You stop off at Walmart on your way home from work — you need, say, Orange Juice, socks, and a pair of pliers — and as climb out of your car and into the bracing cold, you are greeted by the sound of a bell, clanging insistently.  Clang-clang, clang-clang, clang-clang.  Sounds like Christmas.  As you approach the door, you see him; Santa hat and safety vest, a kind of red cauldron suspended under a tripod, a sandwich board emblazoned with the red shield of the Salvation Army.  Clang-clang, clang-clang, clang-clang.

You have a choice, of course: you can toss some money in the pot on the way by.  You can make an elaborate show of fishing in your pockets, coming up empty, and shrugging apologetically as you dash past Safety Santa.  You can try to avoid eye-contact and eat the sixty seconds or so worth of guilt you feel when he calls, “Merry Christmas!” after you.  Or you can get back in the car and drive to Target.  Options.

Of course the right thing to do is to give money.  Lot of good reasons why you might not, though.  Perhaps you don’t have cash.  Perhaps you don’t like what the Salvation Army stands for.  Perhaps you’re actually going into Walmart to pick up groceries to take to the homeless shelter and cook supper for the people there, and the money you’re carrying is for that purpose.

Or, perhaps, like Ebenezer Scrooge, you figure that you pay your taxes and some portion of that goes to benefit the poor and destitute, and in this way you believe you’ve done your part.  Scrooge shot down the plea of the two men collecting alms, with that exact argument.  The point of that wonderful story, of course, is that paying your taxes does not constitute being charitable or merciful.  Truly doing good is when you see a need, and you know you can solve that need, and then you do so.  The government is bad at solving things — people who can’t pay off their debts end up in jail, for instance, and that’s not just in Dickens’ day, it still happens now.  Government is terrible at solving problems.  It is, in fact, uniquely inept at problem-solving.

But the point remains, whenever you see Safety Santa or any of his ilk, you have a choice.  Choice is freedom, and how you decide says something about the kind of person you are.  Either way, if you walk past him into the Walmart, do you know what happens?

Nothing.  Nothing happens.

If, on the other hand, you don’t pay your taxes, do you know what happens?

You go to jail.

It is our tax dollars that pay for government programs.  And while that’s fine, to the extent that people who need help get help, it doesn’t change the fact that tax dollars are not voluntarily given.  This is provable by the above point, that if you don’t pay your taxes you go to jail.  That’s not a choice, it’s literally robbery.  Jesus didn’t advocate robbery, it’s actually against the laws of God.  You’re thinking of Robin Hood, a folk hero whose name literally means, “thieving brigand.”

I think all our mothers taught us the old saying that “two wrongs don’t make a right.”  Stealing from one person to pay another doesn’t make everything right, it merely transfers grievance.  That isn’t any kind of a real solution.  As I often repeat, “responsibility is the price of freedom.”  Being truly free means being responsible for your own actions, like any grown adult should be.  You are allowed to own weapons, so you must be responsible owners.  You are allowed to speak freely, so you must also do so responsibly.  It is the responsibility of the individual to be charitable, compassionate, merciful, and kind.

Not that the government shouldn’t be a benevolent presence; merely that government is not in any way CAPABLE of being a benign presence.  After all, does not power tend to corrupt?  Why then would you give away your own power and freedom to a government that says it will take care of you? Since we started off talking about the Gospel according to Matthew, consider Matthew 7:6:  “Do not give to dogs what is sacred; and do not cast your pearls before swine, for they will only trample them underfoot, and turn and tear you to pieces.”

By the basic philosophy of our founding documents, rights are things you are born with.  The power of the government is in either recognizing those rights, or not recognizing them; and to that end the Bill of Rights is framed as a bunch of stuff the government can’t take away.  Because it isn’t theirs to grant, and therefore it isn’t theirs to take.

Looking back, then, to that meme:

1.) This is the hardest one to defend.  Some of us would just as soon end these programs entirely because, again, stolen money.  But Republicans worry that food stamp programs, and others like it, are used to help keep the poor people, poor.  After all, poor people usually vote Democrat.  Why would the Democrats want to get them out of poverty when they’ve cornered their vote?  Republicans generally want to help people get out of poverty, not keep them there.

2.) Obviously the goal is NOT to poison the water for the Standing Rock Sioux.  Their concerns are valid, of course, but the point remains…nobody is actually planning to poison their damn water supply as this meme suggests.

3.) The travel ban wasn’t meant to be permanent.  It was also not applicable to all Muslims.

4.) Nobody is planning to take away anyone’s health insurance.  The plan is to try to make it so that the government can’t steal money from people who elect not to buy health insurance.  That doesn’t have to mean taking away anyone’s insurance, and the president has said repeatedly that he doesn’t want anyone to lose their insurance.

One last thought, regarding the Travel Ban.  Let’s say you live alone.  You’re a woman.  A man you don’t know comes to your door looking for a place to live.  Do you let him in?  Maybe you’re a parent, you have small children.  Do you let strangers in?  Or do you try to find another way to help the person in need?  This isn’t unreasonable.

“What, the bag? Nah, I’m, uh…I’m saving up to buy a face.”

Do you lock your doors at night?  Or do you leave them unlocked and wide open, for people to wander in, take what they want, and kill you if they want to?

There’s a difference between voluntarily letting someone in, and letting them barge in unchecked.  There’s also a difference between not caring about someone, and choosing to protecting yourself.  Indeed, it’s not unchristian to understand that you need to have your own house in order before you are able to truly help others.

Again, Matthew 7, this time verses 3-5:

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.”

I’m not arguing that we shouldn’t accept refugees, really.  But I do think there’s a reasonable case to be made for exercising care and judgment in selecting whom we choose to accept, just as we would when inviting strangers into our home.  After all, this land is our home too; and national security is squarely the responsibility of the Federal Government.

Anyway, I don’t know if this was useful to anybody, but I thought I would try to illuminate the thought process a little, in case it would indeed help.

Miserable Failure Day

I’ve always hated this stupid damn holiday.  There was one year, I’m pretty sure, seventeen years ago, that I actually was in a relationship when this day rolled around, but even then, it was a long-distance relationship, so my then-girlfriend and I couldn’t even celebrate it together, just chat on AIM like we did every night until we both felt like we were permanently tethered to our computers.

I know that’s part of why that relationship ended.  Another part was that I depended on her for my happiness, and that wasn’t a burden that she, or anyone else, should ever have to bear.  Laura – that was her name – went on to get married and get a boring job and have, I hope, a perfectly happy life.  Me, well…it’s been seventeen years, there’ve been a few other women, and, here I am, single as usual on this stupid damn holiday.

That thing, that unfair burden I placed on Laura seventeen years ago?  Well, that’s my burden and my own personal curse.  I struggle with sadness and loneliness, and I have for as long as I can remember.  I go up and down like a very slow tide.  For a while I’m happy, I see clearly, I am friendly and gregarious, I make people laugh, they wonder who the hell this guy is.  But I start sliding back down, almost imperceptibly at first, until, a week or two later, I’m quiet and sullen and mostly uncommunicative.  I can fake it for social interactions, I’m good at that, I’ve been good at it all my life.  Coworkers often tell me that my smile is what they think of when they think of me.  I found that weird, until I remembered that whenever I see somebody, I reflexively smile, say hey, and pass a brief greeting.  No wonder people think I’m a happy guy.  They don’t know me.

For a guy who struggles with these emotions on a regular basis, Valentine’s Day is the absolute worst thing.  It’s like socially-mandated emotional abuse.  In case I wasn’t feeling sad or lonely enough, here’s a day just for the entire world to remind me how much better than me they are!  It’s cool, I know how to take punches.  I’m a regular Rocky Balboa when it comes to taking punches.  When I get down, I tend to introspect, worrying at knots, which is dangerous because you can loose some threads ‘t’were better left not rent.  There are dark places there, and I do not recommend poking around in them.

When I was little I was typically content, but as I got older, the experiences my friends were having took on a different tone, one I wasn’t comfortable with, and I tried to cling to the things I knew I liked.  I refused to grow up.  Of course clinging to stuff like that has a law of diminishing returns; I was a big kid who was refusing to face the future, and doing the things I liked was eventually just a form of pretending to be happy.  This is a prison of my own making.

I was friends with a lot of girls when I was little.  There were playdates and many afternoons spent at each others houses.  But as I grew up, all of those friendships dried up and fell away.  I don’t know why.  Some of the girls moved away.  Some of them just started hanging out with other people.  One by one they all went away, and I did not get to have the experience of growing up with even one girl as a constant presence in my life.  Not with any sort of closeness.  Some of them I missed for many, many years.

Then one day I found myself a teenager, with no lady friends.  I went to a small high school, we all knew each other, many of us had known each other since Kindergarten.  None of the young ladies in my school were strangers to me, really; but neither were they people that I really felt like I knew.  And of course I was shy.  Teenagers think about sex a lot.  I mean, a LOT.  But my Peter Pan ass wasn’t ready to deal with all of that, because it meant being a grownup, and I had no plan for my future.  I wasn’t going to do anything that would force me to grow up any quicker than I had to.  At that age it’s difficult to think about relationships through any other filter.

Women, therefore, were admired from afar.  Torches were carried until only handfuls of ash remained.  My first girlfriend was somebody I met in college.  My senior year in college.  I was twenty-one.  That didn’t last long.  I think I was mostly just glad I finally was in a relationship.  But it all kind of…we were better as friends.  I became kind of a jackass.  We had very little in common, and I didn’t know how to handle it.

I’ve had a long series of relationship failures.  About half of them were failures to even BE in a relationship.  But I can honestly say that I have tried to learn and grow, and become a better man through every experience.  So that’s where I find myself focusing this Valentine’s Day: on life’s lessons.  I’ll try to talk briefly here about the things I’ve learned over the years, in case any of these may prove useful to anyone out there.  I realize of course that most likely they won’t.  The average person has learned these much earlier in life than I did, and in any case most of us need to bumble around and step on all of our own rakes.  It’s nothing to be ashamed of.  It’s life.

With that said, here goes:

  • Just because you can be in a relationship, doesn’t mean you ought to be.  You lose some good friends that way.  And sometimes you end up doing more harm than good.
  • Long-distance relationships don’t work.
  • If she makes you chase her, tread lightly.  Most likely she just enjoys the attention and does not take you seriously.
  • Long-distance relationships don’t work.  That’s not a typo, it’s just a thing I had to learn more than once and it bears repeating.
  • No matter how much you love someone, you can’t make them love you.
  • If she breaks up with you and says she wants to be friends, she doesn’t mean it, in first place; in the second place if she does, she’s wrong.  Neither of you want to remain friends.  Trust me on that.  You both need room to heal.
  • If there’s an ex in the picture, run like hell.  If she hasn’t let go of him she hasn’t moved on, and if she hasn’t moved on, you’re screwed.  And not in the way you want.
  • Long-distance relationships DO NOT WORK.
  • Sometimes the supposed ex isn’t even really an ex, in which case you’re about to be weaponized for the woman’s own purposes.  You don’t want this, either, even if you think you do.  Run.  Run very, very far.
  • If you aren’t interested in her when you meet her, you aren’t going to be interested in her later.  At least that’s my experience.  They say love takes time to build, and that’s true.  I’ve experienced it.  But only when there was interest from the start.  If I’m not interested, I’m not interested.  I once dated a girl for a few months hoping that I’d get interested at some point; I’d recently been through a breakup and was trying to get right.  She seemed to like me well enough and that was a nice feeling.  But eventually I had to face the fact that I just wasn’t into her and I was wasting her time and mine.  It wasn’t fair to either of us and by the time I finally broke it off, I felt like a total piece of crap and I know she didn’t understand.
  • Which I guess brings me to the age-old favorite; don’t rebound date.  Ever.
  • If you get mixed signals, you’re likely on the other side of the aforementioned “gauging interest level” scenario.  She likes that you’re interested and isn’t sure what she wants.  Most likely this isn’t going anywhere for you.  If it’s important to you, you can stick it out, but don’t be surprised if it doesn’t go your way.
  • If she keeps referencing this guy friend of hers, and how he’s a doofus and she’d never date him, yet she can’t seem to stop bringing him up…yeah, you’re screwed.  Again, not in the fun adult way.
  • If she breaks up with you, and you truly care for her…stay out of her way.  If you don’t, she will end up hating you, and it will be the worst you’ve ever felt.  Worse, even.  You’ll keep finding new sub-levels of Hell.  Eventually you’re just curled up in the fetal position crying in the storage room where the devil keeps his winter sports equipment.  For the love of God, let her have her space.

I’m no expert, but these things probably still apply if you reverse the genders, or make them both the same, in either direction.  Anyway, happy Valentine’s Day, everybody.  Or as I’m calling it this year: Tuesday.

Not A Princess, but Always a Custodian of Hope

I don’t usually get upset over celebrity deaths.  It isn’t that they don’t matter, it’s just it seems selfish and presumptive to mourn someone you don’t really know, when they have actual friends and family who will miss them on a day-to-day basis.  We just watch them perform and act like we know them, when in truth we don’t.  Often we don’t know much about them at all, and that’s as it should be.

So it’s strange to me, how deeply the death of Carrie Fisher has touched me, today.  But then again, it isn’t really that strange at all.  In 1977, with the release of “Star Wars,” retroactively sub-titled “Episode IV: A New Hope,” Ms. Fisher, along with her co-stars Harrison Ford and Mark Hamill, became not only household names but unavoidable faces almost overnight.  People my age grew up with those three faces, and names, on our walls, on our shirts, on our TV’s, on our lunchboxes.  We had action figures modeled after them.  They literally were part of the everyday stuff in our lives.

For a lot of people my age, Carrie Fisher’s Princess Leia represents a first crush, but to reduce the character to that does her a disservice; she was one of the first examples I can recall of how strong and brave a woman can be, and that more than anything is the true legacy of the character Princess Leia Organa.

It’s a common thing, when a beloved celebrity dies, to canonize them, to talk about how great they were and when we do that it’s obviously done out of a desire to celebrate the legacy of their work, and their public persona.  This is, after all, what they leave behind.  I won’t try to canonize Carrie Fisher.  I don’t believe she’d have much use for that sort of thing anyway.  You can’t gloss over all her problems, because to do so is to undermine much of what she accomplished in her life.

Ms. Fisher struggled with mental illness and addiction.  She and Harrison Ford had an affair during the filming of the original Star Wars: I could be wrong, not yet having read “The Princess Diarist,” but I suspect on some level she was looking to get hurt when that happened.  Three years later, the two were drinking buddies during the filming of The Empire Strikes Back, and were pretty much permanently hungover during working hours.

By the time they were making Return of the Jedi, she was a full-blown coke addict.  When you know it, you can see it all over her.  Her glow is gone, her eyes dull and flat.  She’s much more subdued than in previous films, barely present at all.  Very little of her trademark wit and strength are to be found here.  And indeed, in the previous two, Leia’s smartassery is due to Fisher herself reworking dialogue — a role she would take on for a great number of Hollywood films throughout her career.  She was in high demand as a script doctor, and was a successful author of novels and autobiographies — a line that is often blurred as her novels were mostly thinly-veiled autobiographies themselves.

The thing is, in writing about her struggles, she was able to not only take them on directly, but in doing so she was also shining a light on some awful things that a huge number of people deal with on a daily basis.  She was able to advocate for people struggling with mental illness, she was able to lead conversations about addiction.  That took real courage, and strength.  It shows that while the heroic Princess Leia Organa may have just been a role she played, Carrie Fisher could be heroic, too.  Her struggles were real and she was real in how she talked about them and dealt with them.

So, while I cannot say that I knew Carrie Fisher, I can absolutely say that I think she deserves credit for fighting the good fight, and for being an advocate for the everyday people who deal with issues just like hers. Carrie Fisher’s wit, humility, and strength are the things I will always remember her by.

But I’d also like to thank her for teaching an entire generation of men that we love gun-toting, butt-kicking, scoundrel-loving smart-mouthed princesses.

And we always will.